Past few days have been hectic for me. With mom and dad being sick despite their strong facade they put on for my siblings to see. But I know them far better than that. With dad and his chest pain and mom with her shoulder joint hurting and quite often asthma attacks at night.
With my sister off with her hubby and 7months old son to Malacca for a family vacation in lue to their second anniversary and my second brother at work. I'm the only one mom and dad has. And they are the only ones I have.
Even I have to put on this stupid fake smile on my face to avoid making them worry. Why? Because I too am an asthma patient. It has been a few cold nights lately. Causing a few slight asthma attacks for me. But not as bad as mom. Alhamdulillah.
I just hope nothing bad goes as today. With dad... Never mind.
I'm alone. With none to share my worry. No friends. *smiles sadly*
I can't pour my heart out to Kei. He has his plates full as it is with Hana-san going in and out of dialysis and chemotherapy. I hope she gets better. My parents too... They aren't getting any younger nor getting healthier...
I'm scared of what reality and life has to offer. I know the bitter truth will have to be faced one day in the future. But I just hope not in the near future. Ya Allah... Panjangkanlah umur dan sihatkanlah badan mak dan bapak aku Ya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin.
